New year

New years time
Reflection time
Changes abound
Immediately following the 10,  9,  8 second countdown.
Old habits die hard
New years resolution a time for the renewed the reinvention of you
Quit smoking, lose weight, go to the gym,
Fix credit, dump a spouse, or drop drugs, find god, or ditch friends.
Shop for change a winter cleaning of sorts
Cold turkey,  ax, trash, or burned bridges. 
A new better you.
Except 2 weeks later its the same you, with space for new baggage.
True inspiration from within needs no date New years a time for renewal but
Renewal ought to be a daily "New Year"

Dichotomy

Two poles

North or South

Opposites attracted to itself yet far from reach

Two poles

Different properties

Two poles

Double jointed fun.

Two poles undistinguished to the naked eye

Two poles - Dr Jekyl but the Mrs.  Hyde hides

Missed dose unbalancing your act

Crouching tiger Hidden Slut rises

Cross dressed and lip syncing for your double life

Go, be merry, bi- polar whore

Love,  trust,  shit all flushed.

You're all washed up with water  from my morning poop.

Two poles..  Nothing neutral

Fold in half and make love with yourself

Broken magnet self absorbed

Faded glory- into a distant memory vanish like a bullet train into fogged terrain.
Then wither away dead plant - misplaced trash, unrecyclable crap.

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What's in santa fe?

Today on my facebook page I posted a staus about the purchase of plane tickets to move to Santa Fe New Mexico. Someone asked me. What the F is in Santa Fe? Not sure that I answered the question so I will attempt to rectify that now.

S for superb mountainous views; 300 days a year of Sunshine.Santa Fe.

A - altitude oh the wonderful crisp air the mountains bring

N - Noise free - Sounds not of honking horns and anger.

T- temperature milder less severe weather and temperatures. Full range but comfortable.

A- air quality- I will be able to breathe again.

F- FREEDOM- from alternate side of the Street parking, crowds, and confusion...

E everything the city has to offer on a less stressful level than NY. Which is probably everything.

What's in Santa Fe you say? Everything that is not NY. My new husband - Ivan Negron, and a new and exciting life! :)

Down you go!

Like a bad stomach ache

Relationship; heartbreak

Betrayed friendship

Tangled mess

The end sooner than it appears.

Deletion , termination, bansihment -eminent.

Toxicity levels rising

Nuclear matter building,  lingering

On every word that crosses your broken unhinged mouth.

Uncontrolled substance

Havoc, your aftermath

Down you go into the porcelein's

Puddle of water. The last day of this calendar are you. With just a pull of this contraption's handle. With you; all your drama despair swirling clock or counter clockwise. Into the cataclysm your epic fail of a friendship with it. Into the abyss our friendship our drama our trust.  Rapid spin most of you gone...

Complete deposit fail

You hang on and decide to be a stubborn fool. You rise against the current.

Fighting to keep drama from sinking

Black hole no place for a friendship you say. Moments pass- back to back flush not possible. Time slowed as thoughts of the good times we had flow through my soul.. Thinking thinking about 40 seconds come and go... This is the end of us, our friendship now ...

Down you go!!

Change-

Change - (verb) to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone. (Credit to Dictionary.com). An important element of life no doubt, for without "change" there will be stagnation, and with stagnation comes death.

Today I was watching a show called Kitchen Nightmares, by where a world renowned Chef Gordon Ramsey, goes to failing restaurants and streamlines their menus, operations, and venue, in an attempt to reinvigorate them, and change them for the better. The reaction of this one person inspired me to write this entry... The woman was fighting the changes the Chef made to the menu, and venue.. She complained and made it seem as if he actually made it worse. While everyone is entitled to their opinion's on things; the difference was it wasn't her opinion that she was voicing.. It was her oppostion to change; evidenced by the fact that she kept on comparing her newfound restaurant to that of old. I was home yelling at the tv "she is stupid" etc, but in reality i know how hard change can be.

I am on the verge of a massive change myself. My life will change, and I am willing to bet everything on it. Hence the fact that I will have to do everything in my power to ensure i am successful.. The main reason for change? I have lived in the stressful 9 - million people, fast as hell paced city called New York for almost 29 years. I would like to experience it before I get older, I don't want to retire into quietness when I can have it now... The reason I am choosing now to do it is because of this wonderful man I have had the pleasure of meeting. He is my everything and he is in agreement, New York is not an easy place to live in.

What do I leave behind, a stable steady job that I could have just as easily retired from, the New York State Civil Service. Yeah, I know, you think i am a crazy S.O.B. But what is a life worth if I don't actually live it? I cannot afford to go on vacation living here, my job is far as hell, and the commute is miserable. What I am truly leaving behind other than stress? My family, and my best friend... The reason why its ok, is because they know I am doing this for me, so that I can  have a happier healthier life... So that I can truly have what I desire.. A happy, stress free (or little stressed life).

That is worth the whole scary ordeal we all know as change.. This blogger doesn't necessarily recommend leaving your job and up and moving (of course judgement and tact is in order when doing so) but what I do recommend.. is thinking of something you would like to change, and make it happen! Credit card debt outta control make the difficult change and stop using it. Your household situation sucks? make it better! Bad job? look for something else, we all have it in us.. its about how much we want it, and how much of a chance we are willing to take!  Don't let fear stop you! You never know how much better things could be for you. Yeah i know they could turn out worse... but that, that is a change and chance i am willing to take~!

The X!!

The x I refer to is not the party drug it's the pain in the ass ex.. side effects include, but are not limited to....

Tabs kept on your every move

Needs and desire to still be with you.

Contstant phone calls to see who answers.

Hacked accounts, and long ass letters.

Grief given when a new person enters

Sense of entitlement the x won't relinquish

Phone calls to family and friends

Hoping someday to make amends.

X tremely bitter

Xaggerated behavior

Xtra attention things that should have been done before

X Equals wrong, signified end, Closed road, danger-...

 severance.

Xtraordinary X

I speak not the party X, I sputter the words the neck pain Ex.